I had the misfortune of sitting near a window, so I saw firsthand how the cars lost power, their metal bodies crashing into whatever-or whoever-was nearest them. My ears still ring from the sounds of my classmates’ screaming. How the lights in my fourth grade classroom popped as they burned out, one after the other. I can see Day One in my mind’s eye like it’s happening all over again. No, life wasn’t always this way, but this has been my reality ever since the Horsemen arrived. The moment I get a little too comfortable with my surroundings is the moment I get attacked. I touch the hamsa charm on my wrist as I glance around me. Now, worries stack like stones on my shoulders.īut that life is less real to me than even the dream I woke to. I had a happy one-or rather, I used to lack worries, and that’s almost the same thing. No one else is out, save for the occasional Palestinian guard. It looks meek and repentant, like it didn’t once proudly own that space. The synagogue down the street is dark and ominous, several of its windows boarded up. I pass by a darkened mosque, which will be filled with people by the time I return. I have a dagger at my hip and a small axe in my bag. My boots crunch along loose gravel as I wind my way through the streets of Jerusalem, outfitted with my bow, quiver, and the canvas bag I’ll use to store my finds. Right now, on the wings of my dream, I don’t want to keep company with the memories that haunt my flat. It’s too dark to make out the photos hanging alongside them, but my throat tightens at the thought of the images anyway. Salvage-chic weaponry sells for a pretty penny these days. I glance at the walls, where some of my finished products hang-the oiled bows and painted arrows barely visible in the darkness. There’s no way I’m falling back asleep, which means I can work on my latest commission or I can go scavenging. I set the lamp down on my workbench, shoving aside the feathers, glass arrowheads, and scraps of plastic that litter its surface. Briefly, it illuminates a picture of my family before I raise it high enough to see the time on the clock. Grabbing a nearby box of matches, I light an oil lamp. I disentangle myself and roll out of bed. I touch the scar at the base of my throat as I steady my breathing. I can hear my wall clock clicking away, the pendulum swinging back and forth, back and forth. The sunlight above me grows dim even as I struggle. I try to kick my way back up to the surface, but despite my efforts it moves farther and farther from reach. My bag is wrapped around my ankle and it’s dragging me down, down, down. The sharp bite of it nearly steals my breath.

There’s water and fire and … and … and God the pain-the pain, the pain, the pain. The explosion roars through my ears, the force of it knocking me into the water.

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